
I recently took a chance and went for an opportunity that just came into my life. Whether the outcome is good or bad, I am proud of myself for at least seizing the opportunity. I had an internal struggle of whether I should go for it because I am not the biggest fan of change. Then I remembered a life lesson, learn to accept the changes because they happen for the right reasons at the right time.
This time four years ago, in a certain chapter in my life, I was a happy person well at least I thought I was. I was a person stuck in a safe bubble not really living life. I thought I was happy and had all that I ever wanted and what I dreamed of, but God had other plans for me. God decided it was time to bust my bubble and break me out of the lifeless life I was living and flipped my world upside down.
At first I was in denial, I tried to patch the hole in my bubble that I had previously patched so many times and pretended that everything could go on the same as it did. I was in shock, numb of everything around me, I cut myself off from everyone and the world. I soon learned that the patch on my bubble could not hold any longer and it came off exposing me to hurt and anger. I tried to bargain with God, “Please if I change my ways can you please take me back to my safe bubble?”
When I received no response and knew that the looming changes would start to flow into my life, I was angry at the world, I was angry of those around me, and I blamed myself for the brokenness of my bubble. In a very short amount of time, change after change came into my life that I had no control over, I had to move on and learn to live outside of the bubble. This was not the first time my bubble has been broken but this was the first time it exposed so much of me. I soon lived in a numb world full of sadness, and grief, I had just suffered a great loss. I lived in this world of sadness that seemed to be never-ending.
It took a long time but I finally made it back to the surface and back to reality. I finally realized that the new changes in my life were awesome changes and that they were leading me to even more awesome and amazing opportunities. I came to accept the fact that I needed my bubble broken and I needed to expose myself to the ultimate vulnerability in order to confront my past and get rid of the negativity that it held. One day I woke up and decided I LOVED my reality and the changes that had taken place. God has taken me to a place I had never dreamed of, whether he had this in the works for me or not I am forever grateful that he broke me out of that chapter in life. I look back and think yes I could have been happy but I am even happier that God placed a curve in my path leading me down to a path of self-discovery and positively that has made me stronger more confident person.
Change is good, and even though it still is hard for me to accept I know its coming and it will come at the right time when I am least expecting it.
I feel like my whole life has been about perfect timing, I have been so lucky in my last few years of my life that opportunities and changes come to me at the right times. I like to think that my Mom, God and guardian Angel are all always watching over me and preparing me for what is coming my way.
So sit back and be grateful for the forever changing of the seasons in life and for the changes that bring on new chapters in your life story.
XOXO-
Lyssa
